I thought I’d just share my new theory on why I feel like I am going crazy. Those folks closer to me may have other more valid theories, but this is my blog so I get to talk about my ideas!
I’m learning so much in my program. I’m learning about things like instructional theories, learning theories, how to tie learning to performance, how to tie learning to business requirements, and ways to measure all these things.
I’m learning that my technical skills are important as learning moves to a web 2.0 platform. I’m learning my experience as a community organizer is very transferable to building online communities. I’ve learned my background in information studies helps tie all these things together.
I should be happy right?
Well, now my eyes have been opened to all the possibilities. Participating in courses like CCK08 helped accelerate my thinking on the real possibilities of change that are available now. At the same time the realities of being part of a large organization and my responsibilities are more clear to me now too.
So I have this big feeling of — what am I doing? Are the things I am learning just “book learning” (yes I was told today I am book smart, and that may not really translate the “real world”. sigh). And the economy isn’t helping. I feel I’m going to be stuck doing the same thing forever with all these cool ideas in my head that will never get implemented.
I feel like for everything I have learned, I know even less now than when I started a year ago.
I’m hoping this is just normal winter blues. Or that this is the way I am supposed to feel half-way through my program.
Anyone got any advice for me?